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Wednesday, September 12th, 2007
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7:19 am - WTF?
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So I this is a stupid myspace entry. One of my friends has deleted me. This is someone I consider to be close to me. I don't know why I've been deleted, and I'm waiting for a reason. I have a feeling it's all his boyfriend. I said some things about my friend to him that he might have passed on. But It's not like I don't love my friend. I just said I can't handle him all the time. Who can handle anyone all the time? Especially someone who surrounds himself in drama. It's ridiculous how much he can over dramatizes situations. I hope he has a better reason than me saying I can't handle him all the time, because I know he's said that about me too.
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| Sunday, May 20th, 2007
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3:53 am - Lost in emotions
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I've been feeling weird lately. I don't know how to discribe it. Maybe I should just go to sleep right? Yeah, I haven't been sleeping well and that could be part of all the weird feelings this past week. Or maybe it's just the drinking I've done tonight. I've never drank rum before and now my tummy hurts a little. Oh well. Maybe i'll die in my sleep and make some people happy....sad?
haha, i'm so bored and not myself it slowly killing me inside. I've forgotten who I am and what I want to become and how I was even planning on getting there. But it's now summer and time to figure it all out again. Starting with a Journal entry and the start of a new movie script. Let's hope I finish this one. Maybe I should just write a novel like i've wanted to do for so long.
Well tomorrow will be a new day and I have some things to actually do. Later my dears.
current mood:  indescribable
current music: Come Again - Thornley
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| Friday, May 11th, 2007
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12:09 pm - Long over due update
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So school is over for me, I just need to pick up my homework next Tuesday and return some library books and I'm free. YAY! No more school. I don't know what my grades will be like, but hopefully they won't be too bad.
Hmm...Well Iain was totally flirting with me yesterday. I was so shocked. He's actually attracted to me. I'm so happy, so this better work out. I really like him, and now he might like me too. >.<
It's weird how this is working out. I had a bad day on monday, felt better after going to the concert that night. Bad day on tuesday, bad day on wednesday, and thursday was just boring, and now it's friday morning, I mean early 1am friday, and I'm talking to Iain, and our conversation starts off like any of them. Usually with something demonic. Why? I don't know. but then there was a shift when he asked me to tell him a story. I told him I didn't have any, so he said to tell him about my day. Only instead of me telling it, he did. Which was very interesting. Let's see if I can word it right.
"the bears burst into existence. an interseting specimen, it locks lips with yours, sweet sunset lips of pure shimmer and joy.it then lights up like a sun. hence the word bursting.the bears energy burst. beeeee. bears create beez. do you have all the buzz i got for you???"
And that's when he started flirting with me, and I flirted back of course. The conversation let to mud wrestling and he said I could quake him anytime. I'm quite excited to see where things will go.
Ah, I should focus on work though. I don't have much to do, but I shouldn't be on the compy.
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| Sunday, March 11th, 2007
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11:59 am
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| You Mostly Fight Fair | 
When you fight, you tend to remember your end goal of resolving conflict.
However, you can get a little too wrapped up in your own feelings.
Remember that there are two sides to every argument.
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| Saturday, March 10th, 2007
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2:52 am - It's been a while since I last posted
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But that's ok. I haven't been doing much other than going to school and working. Yesterday and today however, my sister and I went to go visit her cat. that was fun. We sat around, talked and watched a movie. We did the same thing today but instead of just sitting watching a movie we at and watched a movie with food from The Lotus. Then we had ice cream with John's neigbor Matt, who happened to be a former classmate of mine. So it was cool to see him again.
My keyboard is being really stupd right now though. I think it's really dirty or something. It won't type some of the letters the first time I hit them. So yeah, I don't have much else to say other than I had a really good weekend.
Later. <3
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| Thursday, February 8th, 2007
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5:18 pm
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So, there isn't much to do today. I just finished my photography homework....well the printing part. Not I have to spot everything. That seems like it will take me another hour or two or three or four. We'll see. I'll probably start that today, then do a little tomorrow and a little more the next day.
Um, lets see. Anna Nicole Smith is dead. Just found that out a couple of minutes ago. Kinda sad. I hope that photographer guy is the babies daddy.
Ok, so a couple of days ago I said to Zach and Tim that I was no longer going to look for a boyfriend. Well I'm still not looking, but how does one really not look. Do they just not show a guy they are interested? or do they no even approach them in the first place. I think I need to continue to find myself anyways before I have a relationship. It shouldn't be too hard not to pay attention to boys around campus since none of them pay attention to me anyways. well beside the one I don't want attention from. So I think after I get a job, if I can get the job at friends school, and make some money and pay back people I owe money + get high lights. Then I can start thinking about guys. I probably still won't chase them, but we'll see what happens. My mind keeps changing.
So yeah. I'm gonna go home now and sleep or watch a movie with my sister. Whatever her mood is will make me decide. And I'll write more about this possible job when I get more info.
current mood: sleepy
current music: Are You The One - The Presets
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| Friday, January 12th, 2007
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2:57 am - The week of fun is almost done.
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So, today has been lots of fun. I've gone out almost everyday this week. I was bored most of the days and had a blast at night with Tim and Zach. We went to perkins 3 times this week, drove around and wasted so much of Zach's gas, and tonight we watched two movies. It was great. I love my boys. I seriously wish we alll lived together. Well... right now. I mean, it was a good night, despite the fact that I got sick for about 45 minutes. But it was fun... of course iving with them would be much different. So maybe I just really wish that we could just spend a weekend together in some hotel on the shore of some beach sipping on cosmos and screwdrivers. It was a lot of fun. I kinda don't want school to start now. I mean, I was bored at first and couldn't wait to go back, but now, I'm having a good time and enjoying myself. I know that I won't have a lot to do this semester since I only have one class, but Tim will be busier, and Zach will be about the same as he is now. But we won't have tuesday open as an option.
All I hope is that I can actually find a job so I can continue school and have a little spending money for myself. Thinking realistically, I won't have much for myself for a while. First I have to pay back Tim and Zach for all the money that they have loaned me. Give Abby some money, since I probably owe her for gas anyways, and then help my mom out with a bill or something, so it's not so hard for her. I just need to help out until my dad starts making some money with his new job. I already know i'll have to pay for my own phone after my birthday, so I will have a job before then. Seriously I will. It is one of my goals that must be done before all the rest.
So my goals this year.
1. Find a job.
2. Lose 20 lbs.
3. Continue exercising
4. Get an A in my one and only class.
5. Be more positive.
6. Make new friends.
7. Be more helpful towards my mom.
That's all for now. I'll probably have more later. But that is all for now. I kinda feel bad that I haven't been doing all I can to be helpful around the house, so I really need to get myself together, and do stuff that is benifcial to more than just me. A lot of planning for the future for an Aries gril. Hopefully I can stick to my plans.
current mood:  contemplative
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| Wednesday, December 27th, 2006
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7:05 pm
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so my lense fell out of my glasses, and I can't fucking find it. It's pissing me off. Not to mention I can't find the versions of le disko and don't cry out that I actually like. The ones that are apparntly are on the album suck in my opinion and it pisses me off. Why can't they just put the same fucking song that is on their myspace on the fucking cd. It's makes it less enjoyable when you've heard it a certain way and than it's different on something else. It makes me not want to buy it.
This day has just sucked. I'm so angry. I could cry right now. Nothing is going right, and no one seems to care.
current mood:  pissed off
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| Thursday, December 21st, 2006
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3:02 pm - Happy Holidays Everyone
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So, My friends didn't think it would snow until tomorrow. Oh well. One day earlier than we all thought. I'm actaully not that upset that it's snowing since I don't have to go anywhere. I'm probably going to go out tomorrow to southdale with Amina to help her help her friend with a project that involves manga. yeah.
Oh yeah, I had a crazy dream last night. I think it's telling me something about Brann. I had decided that I would just leave him alone, but something tells me if I do that I'm going to miss out on something. Yeah, I'd tell you about my dream, but I'd rather not tell everyone. Later. <3
current mood:  chipper
current music: Don't Cry Out - shiny toy guns
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| Tuesday, December 19th, 2006
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11:16 am - WTF!!!!?!?!?!?!?!!
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Ok, So It's 10am, and I'm at school. Why? Because I am. I have no reason to be here until about 5:30, so yeah. Am I wasting my day of what? Just internet. No sound. Nothing to do. So I was going to read, but I left my book at home. So I guess I'll be writing and doing a whole lot of tarot card readings. Since there is nothing else to do anyways. I know I have to talk to Robert today about possibly getting a job at school, so I hope he's here.
So I'm still kinda tired, and I think I need some food. That would be nice. Breakfast. I'll probably get some after Abby goes to her final, and then once I eat I'll wait for her to get out of class. Probably do a couple of tarot readings while I'm waiting. Hmm...so what am I going to eat? I get going to cafe royale would be nice, but I don't know it I want to get one of their sandwiches or not. I mean, I could go to subway and spend more money for a crappier tasting sandwich, but I don't think I want to do that either. There is always school...food....ick. Yeah. I think I'll find somewhere else to eat.
Whatever. Later.
current mood:  hungry
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| Friday, December 15th, 2006
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2:34 am - OMG SCARY!!!!!! BECAUSE IT'S SO ME!!!!
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On the twelfth day of Christmas,  Star_of_Aquila sent to me... Twelve sharpies talking Eleven skateboards writing Ten cameras a-dancing Nine arts beading Eight strawberries a-role-playing Seven bonfires a-stargazing Six open-minds a-painting Five glo-o-o-ow sticks Four tall guys Three horror flicks Two playing cards ...and a japanese in an angelina jolie. |
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| Tuesday, December 12th, 2006
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2:59 pm
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OH, I forgot what I was going to say....I'm kinda just messing around before class starts. I have about an hour before lab, and I get to finish off all my finals for photography and be like yay! only english left.
So yeah, that is pretty much it. I think I'll look up some stuff for my english paper. I mean that is due tomorrow.
Later all!
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| Wednesday, December 6th, 2006
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4:24 am
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So I'm procrastinating on finishing my paper big time. I don't know why I can't seem to just get started. Already 3 in the monring and i haven't typed a damn thing. I probably won't have anything good for class than. Grr. I'm just so tired today. I wish I wasn't so stressed out from my wallet being lost this morning, so yeah. Lame day, and my paper is probably not going to get finished tonight. If I don't get 7 pages by 5 i'm going to sleep for 2 hours and finish in the morning. Later all.
current mood:  stressed
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| Tuesday, November 21st, 2006
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9:06 pm
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I was going to make a post, but now i forgot what I was going to say. I'm getting a little tired and my eyes are a bit heavy, so I'm going to stop staring at the computer and go home or something.
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| Sunday, November 19th, 2006
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2:35 am - hey guys
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I just wanted to let you all know that I will be at the tea garden today (Sunday) just hanging out doing random things around noonish. If you would like to join me give me a call on my cell or just show up. If you do decide to call leave the convo short becuase my minutes are very low. But yeah, I'll basically be doing some homework and then beading/hemping. So You are welcome to join me. Later.
current mood: hungry
current music: Over and Over Again - Angels and Ashes
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| Friday, November 10th, 2006
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3:23 pm
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So my mom just got home is already being bitchy towards me. Why? I don't know. Probably because I'm on my dads computer and she thinks my dad doesn't want me on it at all. Well as long as my internet doesn't work in my room he said I could be down here, and this is what I do. I check myspace, gaia, and update my journal. That's about all I do now since everything else isn't that interesting, and I don't feel like looking for something new. Apparently my dad has a problem with me on myspace, as my mom has expressed to me through yelling, but my dad hasn't said anything when he saw me on myspace the last three days in a row. He was only concerned because his internet had been messing up, and well I don't think that woul dbe my fault for go ing to myspace since it doesn't do that on my computer. So I'm guessing he's ok with it, but my mom doesn't seem to know that. In fact my dad said, that until my h omework is done, homework is all I can do on his computer. And well my homework is now done and he doesn't care what I do on his computer as long as I don't download anything. Which I haven't downloaded anything. I haven't don anything to mess up his computer, but of course my parents don't share the good things that happen with each other because the bad things are what? more important? Whatever.
current mood:  annoyed
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| Thursday, November 9th, 2006
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4:59 pm
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So today has been a pretty good day. I decided to wear my amber necklace just to get a little bit more attention, and it worked like usual. I was also wearing a top that shows my cleaveage. So that also made me get more attention than usual. But hey whatever. My main reason for doing so was to talk to Brann, and well I did. I found out he had myspace, and added him to my friends. So now I'll get to talk to him more, which is what I wanted. So yay. Tim seemed a little embarrassed by my cleavage though. He wasn't expecting it because I was wearing a hoodie for like an hour while we were waiting for Abby to get out of class, and then I took it off and he was like "Oh..." and giggling, and was having a hard time not staring at my huge boobies. Yeah, I didn't really care though because it's Tim.
Anyways, Abby and I are hanging out in the library right now. I'll probably head home once she goes to class just so I can get some homework done while theres still daylight you know. I have two more toles of film to take, and I want to do at least one today, or start on one today. It shouldn't be that hard.
Tomorrow I'm going to be hanging out with Laura, So I won't have much to do. I'll have to call her tonight to see what time we should be getting together tomorrow and what we'l; be doing. Anyways. Later.
current mood:  full
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| Wednesday, November 8th, 2006
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10:39 am - Yet Another Entry Today
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Yes, I'm posting quite a bit today. More than ever before actually. I just feel that I have a lot to say, but most of it is probably about nothing important at all. I'm very tired, and I guess not writing like I used to has made me think of random nonsense to post. I'm procrastinating from what i'm supposed to be doing, and that is writing my essay. I haven't started yet, but I have a good idea of what to say. 4-6 pages isn't that bad, I just need to do it. I planned on being done by 11am or 11:30am at the latest. I still need to get dressed and everything so that I can get to school on time and turn my paper in. It should take me maybe an hour to write everything out if I just start.
I just don't want to do it. I was motivated before, but I don't know where it went. It just disappeared. Maybe it was my mom coming downstairs and yelling at mee because at that moment I wasn't workng on my paper. I was on myspace looking at something on a friends page, and well I needed to get that out of my system. Plus i'm not listening to any music, which I do when I'm writing, so I guess that's another reason I'ma not motivated. I mostly feel it's the lecture from my mom. She makes me not want to do anything by the way she approaches situations. She doesn't concider the fact that I might need to do something else to relieve the stress I'm feeling right now because of my time limit. Even thought the time limit is my fault I need to do something about it before I can clearly focus. Probably why I'm writing so much.
I don't even want to go to class today. I have so much to do afterward for photography. I'm hoping that I'll be able to take some picture of things that I like and dislike in the neighborhood. But it's supposed to be editorial and have some meaning to it, so all the political stuff that was going on would have been good pictures to take, but I was busy with a different assignment. I just want everything to be over with right now, I don't want to do photography anymore at the moment because I can't seem to do anything right with it. My darkroom skills suck. Every assignment so far I've gotten a D on. It's rediculous how pathetic I feel when it comes to that class. I'm a good artist, but not with pictures apparently. I think i'm lacking creativity because it takes me forever just to take the pictures in the first place. My teacher thinks my darkroom skills need work. I can agree, but I like dark pictures, but my picture is too dark for his liking. I like pictures with a lot of contrast, but there's too much contrast for his liking. How can you even grade art if it's an expression in the first place?
Great, now i'm going to be thinking about photography instead of gay marriage. I guess I'll go back and read some more stuff on gay rights just so I can be on task.
current mood:  lazy
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10:16 am
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Ok, so I don't think i'll include things on the gay gene. It's complicated... I mean for me to explain to my readers what exactly is going on. I mean, I was having a really hard time figuring out what a few articles were saying about it. I got the point that there are more than just one specific gene that makes you who you are, but that was pretty obvious, but the part about homosexuality can be heritable, but it's not inherited confused me to the maxium that I just said fuck it. So yeah. I'll just stick to gay marriage and gay rights and the lables and levels. yeah. Later dudes.
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